PANGGGG
Satu tamparan kuat
hinggap di pipi Faizal.
“Why Nick? Why you
do that?!!” Suryati kini merasa sangat marah.
“Why you steal your
class fund?! I don’t understand. If you need money, you can tell me. You don’t
have to steal!”
“I didn’t do it mom…
No… It’s not me…” Faizal menjawab perlahan dengan linangan air mata di pipinya.
“Then, why the
envelope was found in your bag? It’s in your bag! Now please admit and tell me
everything!”
“I didn’t do it… I
swear…”
“The money is
inside your bag!”
“I don’t know why
it’s inside my bag… I don’t know mom… I don’t know”
“Nicholas, what I’ve
done wrong to you… Until you became someone like this… Your teacher told me
that you’re always fighting with others… You don’t study well. You always get a
low grade in your exams… And today… I was asked to go to your school… And the
teacher said… My son… Steal money… I feel very ashamed of you…”
Faizal merasa
bertambah sedih apabila ibunya mengungkapkan kata-kata kecewa terhadapnya.
“Tell me Nick. What
I’m supposed to do? Since you were small. Until now. 14 years old. You’ve
always make me worried. Doesn’t it’s not enough when our own family abandoned
us just because of you? I’ve brought you here to start a new life. But you…
Always create chaos…”
“Mama… Everyday I
was being bullied. I’m not picking a fight with others… But they always hit me.
They took my book. They took my food. My teacher once called me stupid. I don’t
have any friends. They’re afraid of me. Because I’m having this disease…”
Faizal berkata dengan suara yang tersekat-sekat.
“But you know one
thing Ma… I can hold the sadness in me… I don’t care if people insulting me. But,
I can’t bear if you hate me either. I can’t bear if you don’t love me anymore. I
can’t bear if you’re sad. Because… It’s because of you I keep on living and
thinking like… Nothing happens. Because I love you so much. I’m willing to die
for you. Without you, I’m nothing. If you think that I’ve caused you so much
trouble, you can kill me Ma. You can kill me…”
Faizal terus
berlari keluar dari rumah.
“Nick!! Where you’re
going?!”
Air mata turut
berlinangan di pipi Suryati. Dia sedar akan keterlanjuran kata-katanya pada
Faizal.
***
“Macam manalah lu
boleh kena tuduh mencuri weh?” Azim merasa sangat terkejut apabila Faizal
memberitahunya akan hal tersebut.
“Aku tak tahu… Tak
tahu…”
Azim cuba
menenangkan Faizal yang menangis teresak-esak.
“Dahlah Cinderella.
Lu jangan nangis lagi. Lu tenang. Tarik nafas dalam-dalam. Lu cerita kat wa apa
yang jadi sebenarnya” pujuk Azim.
“Tadi, lepas waktu
rehat, pengawas buat spot check kat kelas aku. Sebab ada kecurian. Bendahari
kelas Cempaka ada tinggalkan duit kelas dalam beg dia. Lepas waktu rehat, duit
tu hilang. Masa spot check, pengawas jumpa duit tu dalam beg aku”
“Hah?? Aik macam
mana duit tu boleh ada dalam beg lu?”
“Aku tak tahu…
Cikgu terus bawak aku ke bilik disiplin… Cikgu terus menyoal aku tanpa henti…
Dia call mak aku… Aku malu. Semua orang tahu… Mak aku pun dah kecewa sangat
dengan aku…”
“Weh sabar weh. Kalau
betul lu tak ada curi, lu tak payah malu. Tapi macam mana boleh benda tu ada
dalam beg lu? Wa sangat hairanlah. Lu banyak duit. Buat apa lu nak curi. Kan?
Ni lu mesti ada sakitkan hati orang ni. Hah! Along tu punya kerja kot!”
“Takkanlah Along
nak buat sampai macam tu…”
“Along tu satu
kelas dengan lu ke?”
“Tak. Dia kelas
Cempaka”
“Kan lu kata tadi
duit kelas yang hilang tu duit kelas Cempaka! Lu fikir tak apa yang wa fikir?”
Dush. Syak wasangka
kini terbit di hati Faizal.
‘Ya Allah. Aku
serahkan segala-galanya kepadaMu. Berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk menghadapi
semua ini. Berikanlah petunjuk jika benar Along yang melakukannya. Kau
ampunkanlah dia…’
“Aku tak tahu nak
fikir apa Zim… Tapi aku tak nak datang sekolah lagi. Aku malu”
“Dahlah. Lu jangan
fikir banyak-banyak. Nanti lambat laun oklah tu”
“Terima kasih Zim…”
***
Setelah Faizal
selesai mengerjakan solat Isyak, Suryati masuk ke bilik Faizal.
“Nick. I’m sorry. I
didn’t mean whatever that I said to you this afternoon”
Faizal menyalami
tangan ibunya.
“I’m the one who
supposed to apologise to you. Forgive me Ma. I didn’t mean to hurt you”
“Nick. I just realized
that I have a wonderful son. A blessings from God. You have such a strong
heart. You’ve been bullied all this while… But you only tell me now. I want you
to know that you can share anything with me. I’m your mother. I will always
have time for you. If you want to talk about it later. I’ll be ready. You’re
not alone. You have me. You have your sister.
I think maybe for
some time… You don’t have to go to school anymore. I will give you time to
decide… Whether you still want to study here. Or let’s just move to Sydney. For
now, you don’t have to worry about anything. I will handle everything”
“Thanks Mom. You’re
the best Mom in the world. Forgive me for my wrongdoings…”
Faizal memeluk
ibunya.
Tiada apa yang
lebih penting bagi Faizal melainkan ibunya. Wanita yang sangat dia kasihi.
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